TGB: Basil - Heart Chart (Updated)

"I've been received well so far-- no one's been hostile to me since my arrival. I still can't help but feel a little self-conscious about taking the place of a true tribe cat, especially one who rose to her rank throughout her life. It seemed that I became a leader so suddenly. I wish I had been there with her on that day, so that I might've saved her. Maybe it's wishful thinking to believe I could have done that, but I would have tried. I know I called her uptight, but... she was a good leader. She deserved all the love she had."

"Jazzy's such a sweetie. I wasn't there when she first burst into the tribes, but we've gotten to know each other pretty well. I'm pretty glad she's so cheerful; it takes some of the edge off some of the stress when we're working. I'm relieved she knows when to be serious too, though. The Spirits really blessed me with such a catch of a deputy. I appreciate her more than I can say."

"Everything was... too much for her. She was strong, but... such a fragile heart. I miss her."

"*SQUINTS*"

"Al, Al, Al. Such a dainty cat, isn't he~? His vanity can be irksome, but even I'll admit-- he's quite the handsom tom, no~? I suppose it's mean, but I pick on him a little bit. He needs to do his job as a healer, and sometimes that includes getting dirty. I don't have to actively find him everytime someone needs to go digging, though. It doesn't seem to make much difference; he always complains.
At the same time, though, I can rely on him. I don't show my faith very well, do I? He's a sweet cat, despite how exasperating he can be sometimes. I appreciate him probably more than he knows."

"Ah, Al. Never change."

"Zarya is a dear. I sent her on such an unpleasant errand very suddenly over the winter, and she didn't complain once. (A pleasant contrast to Al, heheh.) Such a selfless young healer. When she becomes an adult, I'll surely give her an apprentice as soon as possible; she'll be a wonderful influence on any new cats."

"The Spirits chose her as my new deputy. I'm not disappointed; I know she'll be wonderful."

"A very promising new Blue-Light. He may not have the nerve for it yet, but I see great potential in him; I believe his patience and talent will soon encourage his confidence. I've seen a flicker of temper in his eyes, and in someone so young, that concerns me. I hope Kenieen will be able to rub off on him and cool his temperament a bit."

"I haven't seen him lately. Ah, I wonder if he returned to exile..."

"Jasper is definitely one of those new healers that stands out. I can't imagine how I'll make use of him for the tribe's sake, but he's doing his best.
When I found him, he was a starved husk-- it was terrible. His desperation brought him to Light Tribe, but loyalty has kept him here. He acts so pretentiously, but I know there's more to him than what he expresses. The defense he has in place is to protect his softer nature... I can't imagine what he's gone through to believe he has to put up such a barrier against everyone he meets."

"How... could I have been so stupid. So blind. Jasper, I'm... Thank you. Thank you, so much. Even though you - the way you felt... You saved my life. My kittens' lives. I owe you a debt that I... I can never repay..."

"Oh, my little Zay. Such an uncoordinated little bundle of fur. Of them all, he reminds me most of his father. Ah, my sweet little boy - keeping his siblings in line with that sincerity of his."

"Jasper, I wish you could see him. Really, he's almost your opposite, haha! But, there are parts of him that are properly suited. That pride he feels, for being mine and Lully's child - he really could stand to be a little more modest. Yet he's so social, always out and about and looking for someone!"

"Such a fierce little thing, isn't she? I have to downright fight with her to do anything - bathe, feed, nap. And so forward! She'll be renowned someday, I can feel it. What for, I wonder?"

"I hope you can see her from up there, Ross. She's such a beautiful little belle; but, like you, so... harsh? Haha! Ah, she takes good care of Zay. I do appreciate that dearly."

"Zaeli was a rare kind of cat. I won't soon forget her...
I'm embarrassed to say that I was rather smitten with her when we first met-- she was beautiful. Of course it was more than that, though. The more I got to know her, the more she impressed me. She was smart, independent, without being detached. I can't say when my affections crossed the line, but soon I found myself pining for more than friendship. It was unlike me, but I kept it to myself; I enjoyed admiring her from afar. I would never deny how I felt, but I never brought it up. I suppose I was a lovesick coward.
I can't imagine any cat I would have loved to spend the rest of my life in the company of. I'll always be in love with her."

"The Yellow-Earth! Or, I suppose he's the new Silver, isn't he~? Ah, I only met him briefly, but he's doing well, I suppose. I look forward to getting to know him better."

"Vitani is an unappreciated gem, and not for her looks. She may be gorgeous, but her golden heart is often overlooked. I can't imagine having such heavy responsibilities being thrust upon one so young, and yet she's persevered as the Silver-Water. Her strength is remarkable, and her dedication to her tribe is extraordinary. No matter the tragedies that have befallen her thus far, she continues to face life as though she'll never shatter. No matter what a fragile flower some may mistake her for, I can't say I've ever met a more capable she-cat.
Even so, she's young and can't be expected to handle the pain of life alone. Warrun loves her dearly, and I believe he's the perfect tom to support her. Even so, after her miscarriage-- my fondness for her grew. I can't help but look on her maternally now. It may be inappropriate for one Silver to regard another in such a way, but-- well, I have no excuse. Mind your own business, if you think that way~"

"She's left the tribes. In these times, maybe I can't blame her. So young, with all of the stress and danger of the caimans. I hope she found safety and happiness wherever she is."

"Oh, what a dear. I really can't say I've ever met a tom quite like him~! So calm, yet so adventurous. And perhaps not always so collected-- a little silly at times. Ah, such a wonderful combnation of traits. I can only say I'm upset I hadn't met him sooner. I've no doubt that we'll get into plenty of mischief together."

"It's odd to say that I truly look forward to seeing him. I've begun spending more time at the lake again-- I've missed it... Now it brings me good memories, of us swimming together and playing, rather than reminding me of the last time I saw Ross. I haven't forgotten him... Something about Lully reminds me of him-- such broad tomcats, and though Ross didn't always show it, such gentle expressions. I'm glad the Spirits have blessed me with this friend."

"Oh, what to say anymore. I don't want to try and explain it~"

"Every little snowflake reminds me of him. So big and soft~ I miss him every day he's not with us. But the Water Spirit blessed him as deputy, and our time together has been cut short. He stays most nights at his own home now, but I don't mind; the time he spends with us here is the best of my days. Oh, and the way he plays with the kittens; I have no doubt he's the best kind of cat to be a father. I love him so very much, and... I really, truly don't know what would have become of me if he weren't here."

"Warrun is a rascal and a sweetheart. No matter his flirtatious nature, he's got a heart of gold and knows where the lines are drawn. I hope he'll be less reckless, now that he has Vitani to think about when he's got some crazy idea in his head. I miss him, but I'm sure we'll see each other again."

"Off with Vitani to the mysterious lands of the North, hmm, Warrun? You best take care of her, or I'll have to give you another fierce scolding. ... And take care of yourself, as well."

"... I wish you had told me how you felt. I came to know you so well since I came to these lands, and thinking of how you must have felt-- dying without telling me how you felt--... I knew, Ross. No matter how it would have panned out... I hope you can hear me say I love you."

"I've only met her briefly, and never really personally. I'm almost afraid to, though. I know her sister was the old Silver-Light, and I'm not sure how she'll regard me for taking her place-- especially since I came with the exiles, and I know some of the tribe cats don't regard us very happily. Still, I don't want to make assumptions about her, even if she's seemed a little vehement during the meetings I've seen her at. Although... I feel like I should have offered my condolences long ago. Bringing it up now might be inconsiderate. Ah, I'm so confused. I'm not sure what to do."

"I... I never got to apologize. To tell her how sorry I was about her sister. But, more than that, I'm... I feel angry sometimes. How could she do that to her kittens, leave them behind in such a dire time?"

"This poor tom, when I met him, had wound up on the unfortunate end of a skunk while trying to run it from his tribe's territory. I won't deny the scent was terrible, but I couldn't very well turn away. Copper was one of the first cats I met when I came to the tribes; it was nice to be welcomed to the lands by such a friendly face. After we got most of the stink washed from his fur, we had to part, but he left a pleasant impression."

"Ah, such a serious cat. I think, if he lightened up a bit, it would be great fun to visit him more often. His mind works in wonderful ways, I must admit, and he is surprisingly diplomatic-- without being too stiff about all the business stuff. Pretty laid back, actually. Especially considering his deputy had gotten into a fight with one of my healers. Not the best of terms to finally meet him one on one, but... we sorted things out~"

"If I had - if it had happened different... I should have saved him. I should have been there to save him."